I’ve had the most amazing two weeks of my life - so indescribable that I can’t even begin to put words together – they won’t do justice at all! Looking back at the days leading up to it, I know I wasn't anticipating anything like what I am actually experiencing. I was frightened, at the thought of going through the days ahead (as something was supposedly a big deal).
But God’s hands of grace have been shining ever since, I am literally awestruck by how He has filled my waking and sleeping hours with His joy. I have totally forgotten what it was I was worried about! He truly is the only Treasure that counts! He is our greatest Advocate, Rescuer, Comfort, Joy, the Prince of Peace, the All in All. I wish I could lay out every detail of what He has done, but it wouldn't fit on one blog.
He has taught me how fulfilling it is to seek His presence and stay. What a gift it is to invite Christ to be with me as I walk on the street, work in my cubicle, ride the jeepney to meet with friends, go home, eat my lovely meals, sleep, listen to audio messages, pore over His Word, make everyday decisions, and just to commune with Him in everything.
There is so much more detail I could go into, and I would love to tell more, but there is one thing He zeroed in on, as He taught me new revelations: that living a poured out life for Jesus Christ requires basking in His presence and not running around “trying to accomplish a ministry.” It is all about making Christ our all in all, falling in love with Him first, satisfying our heart and spirit with Him first, before we can ever go out to the world and minister to others.
Because how can we even give to others something that we do not have? And how can we have a “ministry” like that, when His Spirit doesn’t go with us? What difference then would there be, between us and mediocrity, if the very lives we live do not please our King? How then can we listen, when we hardly have time for Him throughout the day?
Ministering to the least as Christ’s hands and feet is an overflow of a life that is ardently devoted to Christ. And in the most compact way that I can put it, total devotion to Christ is to be passionately in love with Him and being about His business, attending to the needs of others out of genuine love and not out of recognition, choosing to honor Him in everything we do and not be focused on self, and trusting His perfect wisdom with reckless abandon.
It is not always an easy task, because our spirit is willing yet our flesh is weak. But it is a battle worth fighting for (with His strength), as we resolve within ourselves to run to Jesus and pray, “press me unto You, Lord, press me closer unto You.” There is a great deal at stake if we live for ourselves and our own selfish desires. But if we humbly ask for His grace to desire more of Him and allow Him to mold our hearts into becoming more like His, and declare faithfully that He is indeed worth far more than fine gold, Jesus will surely take root and make our heart His dwelling place, always..
May His name be great in our lives,
camille..